Tell Me Something So Beautiful

ABOUT ME

• NurulHuda aka Hudsie
• 24th April 1989
• Temasek Poly AFSN
• Loves Her Darling Ian
• Love to bake
• Loves creamy pasta
• Loves BNJ's Strawberry Cheesecake
• I want the Tiffany&Co.'s necklace
• I want that black Volcom dress or the white.
• I'm a TouchaHolic
• I envy guys cos of BenSherman
• I have a kitty Kat Tabby
• I love my niece Delphina Erlyna

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

5:18 PM

Man, What is up with people cancelling out on me. Pangseh me and all. Wahlau. I'm this close to giving up having company lah. I'd rather go on my own. "Let's go GYM!(alone)" "lets catch a movie (alone)" "lets go break 'together' (alone)"WTH siaa. At least I won't have to wait up. Or I can just go with my own flow, no worries, I don't expect anything from myself. Shit. SHIT. Totally Eff SHIT. Damn..... Forget it. I wanna go home. I'm not like financially unstable or whatever it is with family problems, I just have a lame ass problem with myself, school, seriously feels like a war-zone, I'm fighting for survival, alone, with so little help. Going on without knowing what lies ahead. It's just too overwhelming. But, wth, Let it be then, I'm tired of worrying, I'm tired of hoping for others. This insecurity sucks, it has accumulated so much within me, I'm at the verge of bursting into a gazillion tears. Gosh, I wish I was brought so independent, that I don't even need friends, I don't even need anyone to take care of me and help me stand, so this feelings won't appear. Life feels easy when you're so sure of yourself. At least, they know what lies ahead, what do I know? But hey, whatever daaa. Fuck it. * I apologize for my explicity. *

Anyway.. Oh Boy, I tell you, I thought I'd score high in Catering Tech, WTH, I keep on making careless avoidable mistakes in tests. Like forgetting to write the numbers to those stupid fruits and vegetables I named, or, or, like stupidly not know that there is a lecture quiz and having seat for it like an idiot. Life hasn't be fair. At least in my academics. I chiong my best this semester. Thank God I managed to pass my maths test. Bmic, I'm not too sure, it's still with the teacher. I hope I make it. Against all odds. I feel very unlucky.

Oh, yea, I want to catch that SHREK 3 movie, apparently, well, I was planning la, but it failed la. So whatever la. LA LA LA.

I want to go watch Shrek 3. Pirates of the Caribbean(even though I heard its bogus). Ocean's BLA(I'm not sure what no. is it now). Et cetera.

I know I've been complaining a lot. But, Hell. It's been a long time since I last blogged. So. Yes. Life isn't so bad after all lah actually. I'm just ranting so much about the little problems I have with myself. I take this seriously though. UGH! Now I really want to watch SHREK the Third. Tomorrow.