ABOUT ME
• NurulHuda aka Hudsie
• 24th April 1989
• Temasek Poly AFSN
• Loves Her Darling Ian
• Love to bake
• Loves creamy pasta
• Loves BNJ's Strawberry Cheesecake
• I want the Tiffany&Co.'s necklace
• I want that black Volcom dress or the white.
• I'm a TouchaHolic
• I envy guys cos of BenSherman
• I have a kitty Kat Tabby
• I love my niece Delphina Erlyna
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
7:10 PM
Oh Gosh! I got myself into such a deep shit. Oh man. I'm so bad at this control myself in hearts affairs. daYm. Should i tell him the truth? ? ? That I don't really ever regard him as a boyfriend. Now... He thinks I'm his. Fark. I think I must tell him about this situation I'm in. Seems so easy this think. I mean... yeah! he's the kewlest guy I've ever met. So Far. Kewl uh.. But. I can't see myself loving him. Gosh. And that date the other day, I think I've sent you the wrong message. It's just that. I really like you. But not like you like you. just Like! oh gosh. I'm sorry. Really sorry. - that's what i was thinking of the whole day.Gosh. I feel so terrible. Anw, my days.. my past few days. I'm all stressed up. Daym. I have a lot of studies to catch up on. But still. Haks. I'm fine with it. Just that sometimes it gets scary. I went Ngee Ann Poly yesterday. Met up with the Mass Comm ppl and Indigee. We played the slapping game. So.. the back of my left hand has got small red spots due to it. Haks. Derrick thought me how to slap properly. He's kewl uh. He was from AI last time. He knows Azli. ok. Yeah. So Mass Comm people whom I met yesterday! thanks for the great company!!! I enjoyed it. and Indranie... I wuv you. Next week uh S'pore Idol, I chop euu ready!! Well. Today. Long day. I hate it. Skewl. Just. Gets. Worse. Stress. Terrible. Today. After skewl I bumped into this guy at the ovr head bridge.. HE'S KIUT. alah. Can melt. He spoke to me. Then...... Mom and Dad came along. Oh man! Mom was like asking me uhhh.. then dad was checking on him as he walked away. mom asked.. Your boyfriend ehh.. gosh. I was like. no lah.. my old fren.. hauhua.. Old fren kaper! Gosh. wasted. Padahal Padahal. Oh man. this sucks. Time to message this person and get things right. Sweet Song this is. Sing with me. Rufio. Rufio. Rufio.
RUFIO"One Slowdance"You're standing there alone And so am I But I want you here By my side Your smile at me Is everything The staring game That song of love. I look you in the eyes I try to read you thoughts I ask you to go with me To a far off place.
Oh. I look you in the eyes I try to read you thoughts I ask you to go with me To a far off place. You and me dancing the night away You can feel my heart beating so hard.
We look eye to eye And I'm swept away. On a moonlit walk on the beach Watching the sunrise for the first time I'm in a trance From that one slowdance.
You're standing there alone And so am I But I want you there By my side Your smile at me Is everything The staring game That song of love. I look you in the eyes I try to read your thoughts I ask you to go with me To a far off place. Oh. I look you in the eyes I try to read your thoughts I ask you to go with me To a far off place.
You and me dancing the night away You can feel my heart beating so hard.
We look eye to eye And I'm swept away. On a moonlit walk on the beach I'm in a Watching the sunrise for the first time trance From that one slowdance. We don't have to talk, We don't have to laugh at all I just want you here with me We don't have to talk, We don't have to laugh at all I just want to be You and me You and me dancing the night away You can feel my hearting beating so hard We look eye to eye And im swept away. On a moonlit walk on the beach Watching the sunrise for the first time I'm in a trance From that one slowdance.
Sunday, May 28, 2006
9:39 AM
Well, Finallieee... Hudsie updates her blog after many many days. Boy, was i busy eh? Tired seii. Hakz. My Oh my.. I've got a crush on euu Mr K. It's Sunday Morning. Umm, 9.40a.m right now. I was woken up by my Dad. Guess how... I was dreaming about something so amazing when I heard this background music. I was trying to identify the source of that song. Then, I realised it was somebody playing on an acoustic guitar. So, I woke up. AND. I had the shock of my life. My dad was sitting right beside me on my study table chair playing my guitar. Okayy. So, yeah... I woke up, looked at him. Straight-away, he asked all that mind-boggling questions about how's school, the concession pass how to buy lah, all. Oh man, I was like.. "......................................." (0_o)?? haks. Kay. My yesterdays... let's see.. when did i last update my bloggie... Friday! CCN day. Well. It's sort of a fund-raising activity for all the first year students in TP. My class sold roses and mochi and chox eclairs. Haks. I went around the whole school selling the roses mobile. Bumped into many of my friends booth. Rugby people. And Sec School people. Afiqah was selling brownies. It looked yummy. She bought a blue rose from me. Thks eh. Then, went to Azli's class's booth. He was selling burgers. Well, I bought the last burger. He also bought a rose from me. Thks too. Kayy. So, yeahh, It was fun uhh.. I was like going crazy selling the roses. Had this very difficult customer. So, fussy seii. I was so pissed lah. Ok, so.. as the carnival was about to end. All the stuff sold were getting cheaper. Some even were give ood free. Of course, I came for free food. Got GULA TARIK. Hehehe. After that... I decided to chill with Azli, Moran,Azwan and Dan. At the "sweet and cosy" Khatib. We were on top of ABC there, two of the guys decided to walk on the roof of the covered walk-way. When a so called policeman, wearing this shorts and shirt, with socks soooooooooo high, and wearing slippers. Imagine uh, socks so high, shorts and slippers. well, it doesn't look so well on a belly so big man. kay. He took out this card and said, "I policeman you know, if anything i can just report about this matter to the environment blah blah." Heks.Anyway, yeah, well. On Saturday. Chaos happened. My auntie was under depression, She was seriously ill. Luckiliy, it was for a lil while. So after that, helped my eldest sis move out. She was moving to her new home. Yeahh. I was sad. Coz, after that... no baby at home. Haish, I'll miss the baby. So so much seii. Delphina Erlynna that's her name uh. Long right. Yet, It's beautiful. Kay my days... Gone. so POOF! Sing with me baby...ATARIS"San Dimas High School Football Rules (Acoustic)"Last night I had a dream that we went to Disneyland,Went on all the rides, didn't have to wait in line.I drove you to your house where we stared up at the starsI listened to your heartbeat as I held you in my arms.We hung out at the rainbow where we drank til' half past two.Nothing could go wrong anytime that I'm with you.Like crashing a hotel room or leading up to that first kissOr searching for a high school that you know doesn't exist...These are the things that make me freeI feel like I'm stuck in "stand by me"This night was too good to be true.Today I woke up alone wishing you were here with me,I wanted us to be something that we'd probably never be.Today you called me up and said you'd see me at our show,But now I'm stuck debating if I even wanna go.DENISE, don't you understand that what I say is true?I just want you to know I have a major crush on you.I'd drive you to Las Vegas and do the things you wanna doI'd even have Wayne Newton dedicate a song to you.I only wish that this could beJust dump your boyfriend and go out with meI swear I'd treat you like a queen.
Friday, May 26, 2006
12:12 AM
oh my! I'm still in love with you boy... if only i have one wish, I'd want a million trillion lifetime that I could spend with you. Falling in love with you. Again and Again... I'm tired. Sleepy. I twisted my ankle during rugby. Ouch! Rugby today was the best session. Best Ever. Muddy field. WAH SYIOK! I can't wait for CCN day!!!!!!! Muahahaha. Kay. Toodles!
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
9:18 PM
I'm sick people. I feel lethargic all the time. I've got blocked nose, Can't breath properly! Legs ache like shit. Butt, cramps. Eyes all puffed up... Heart, oh well. Bruised. I feel miserable. My Yesterdays... Monday: Oh man. Bad BAd BAD day... during school time. SFP tutorial teacher was a bleargh! She was very sarcastic lah towards my friend. DAYm. I so do not like her. Kayy. You're insulting my friend eh. What kind of person are you, who are you to insult her like that seii. Ishk. Anw. Was daYm mad at her lah. And So I was broke that day. It was sucky. Though, I had rugby in the end. Waited for the rain to subside before we headed for the field. Kewl. Field was damn syiok uh. All mushy, Wet, Muddy. Mud was everywhere! Had to wash up before going home. If not! Habis. Obvious. Went home with Rino, Hafiz Mus. and Haris.. We walked lah all the way from TP to Tampines Interchange. Had so many jokes to tell. Hilarious. Tuesday, which is today... Boy. I was freaking tired. Had skool at 8 a.m! Then till 9. Then brk till 12. WTF! I was really tired uh. I felt. I don't know. A bit restless. skool till 6. Pathetic. I have NO LIFE. Seeking love.Peace Out!
Sunday, May 21, 2006
9:27 PM
Oh my god! I feel so dizzy. My head is like spinning because of this maths thingy. Yeah. I did my maths homework.
Gosh! It's very difficult. Luckily I know how to do all the other homework. Looking for MR K! I trimmed my hair today. Anyway, my yesterday... I went to meet up with Indigee. We went to watch The Da Vinci Code. Apparently, Indrani lost all her important documents that actually is to prove that she's already above 16. Boy, did we went kanchiong for a while. Luckily, Imam was there. He was working that time and so, Indrani manage to get in. The movie was awesome. So great. Very interesting. Silas. Opus Dei. Mary Magdalene. The Rose line. The crptex. The Holy grail. A-P-P-L-E. The last supper. Madonna of the rocks. Mona Lisa. Sir Isaac Newton. Teacher. So cool. Today, at home goyang kaki. And Perah Otak. alah. It's You. It's tutorial day tomorrow. Alah. Rugby! I wuv you. Oh ya, SSK is HOT! Sing With Me BAby!AMBER PACIFIC"Everything We Were Has Become What We Are"Is this what you wantNo words at allSilent but sure of the things that you lostTake all your wordsTo cover your liesSecrets won't coat all your tears and your criesOne reason (Reason)(For past mistakes)Won't save us now (Now)I'm lost for wordsTo deep in thisFor you to see We've come so farSo far for meI'm gone with every line you saidSo here's to your heartHere's to your nameHere's to the stone that you broke once againYou've crossed every lineWorn out your stayThis is the last chapter of our fading daysOne reason (Reason)(For past mistakes)Won't save us now (Now)I'm lost for wordsTo deep in thisFor you to see We've come so farSo far for meI'm gone with every line you saidAnd every road you take (You take...)I'll miss our yesterday (...terday...)And everything we know (We know...)Is goneI'm lost for wordsTo deep in thisFor you to see We've come so farSo far for meI'm gone with every line you saidI'm lost for words to deep inside. We've gone so far yet you gave it up just like that.... How could you.
Saturday, May 20, 2006
12:01 PM
It's Saturday Morning. Gosh. I've got nasal congestion. Urgh! Haven't got it for years seii. Oh my. Anyway, Wow, I didn't update my blog for days already. Heks. ok. Gosh. Soooo.. My Yesterdays...Wednesday.. When the truth is revealed. Alah. Kay. Bumped into Azli early in the morning at school's busstop. He was telling me about his perfomance later in the evening. Ok. So school ended so early. I decided to go for the thing to watch him perform at the Esplanade Library. Yeah. So YP accompanied me for a lil'while to let time fly at TM before i headed for Esplanade. i reached City Hall a lil early so I went window shopping before I head for Esplanade. However still, I reached there at 6.45p.m. Noone was there. Then, bumped into Fadhilla and her friend. So we waited for the performers. Head there was three perfomers, Azli, Ash and Faizal. So yeah, a while later the "kings" arrived. Perfomance was enjoyable.After the perfomance, new friends and old friends went up to Esplanade roof top. Well, the forgotten took place. We came to watch you.reached home late. oh well. bleargh! Thursday, It's a new day. Van's back!!! Had SFP lab. Ate a lot of potatoes cooked in different ways. Sauteed, deep-fried, pan-frieds, baked, braised all.. fun lah SFP lab. Apparently, school ended too early once again. Rugby's at 6. But school ended at 2 plus. Haks. So yeah, YP and me went to waste time at CS. Then I headed for rugby.Rugby... Fun as usual. Fell and slide across the field seii. haks. Muddy situation. Well, Rino, Haris and HAfiz mus went for rock climbing that day so they were waiting for me after their training. So, went home with them. Gosh was damn tired by then. Friday, if it weren't for bad luck we wouldn't even have any luck. Me, Pingz, KC, G, Faiza and Hafizah totally missed the first hour of PIPC lect, we forgot that it started at 8. Then... me, PingZ, Van and KC were totally blur about the SFP lecture, so we didn't attend it. Gosh. Kay. So, it was a bad bad day. But still the last day of the week. And so.. Muahaha.. that's all!!
Thursday, May 18, 2006
10:33 AM
i hate you...
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
4:12 PM
I'm listening to XO from Fall Out Boys now. Come to think of it, this song is not so bad after all. In fact, I like this song. I'm beginning to get addicted to the song. Hakz. Kayy, this is my third attempt in writing my entry today. Well, somehow, as start writing the entry, something else happens. Haiyo. Tiring tau type3. Anw, My yesterday... It was Monday yesterday, lots of tutorials. It was tiring. Had HAP lab in the morning. Wasn't so bad, as a matter of fact it was quite fun. My group members were Me, YP, G and KC. Well, we knew what we were doing lah. which was incredible. Okay. So maths was making a lil sense, so i got kind of relieves. But still, I have to catch up, there's a quiz this friday! All the logarithm and exponential. Really, so, chim. So, yeahh... ended school at 5 plus. Maths teacher so good let us off early. Good laah, that means I can be on time for rugby training. Yippie. So yeah, had rugby. It was tougher, rougher. I fell and did sort of a somersault in the middle of the field. Haks. Ok-ok. But I was ok in the end. Then so, training ended late. So, I was queueing up for 969 when I saw Gin. Yeahh. Boarded the bus, and well, by the time I got on the bus, there were only single seats left. then, Gin offered me the seat beside him. I got excited for a while there, cos we have never really spoken to each other before. So, we chit-chat throughout my whole journey. It was really nice to talk to him. So, got home real quick. "DIA" last episode so I had to rush. The ending was so predictable. (ahuh G, it's sooo predictable.) Kayy. Yeahh. the whole family was together watching it. Haks. Today... Had an argument with my sister over the phone. She loves to condemn me. Making me feels so bad. I hate it. Whatever. On the way to school Gin smsed as he promised. Just to say that unlike me, He can still continue sleeping till ten while I have to be on my way to school already. heks. School ended early. At 3. Had no lab uh that's why. Wore heels again. Did my Phishy fish survey, I'm a cheerful Guppy and some swordfish. Kay. Miss Quek. my chairperson, wanted a one-one talk in order toget to know more about the student. So, mine was just now. Well. Interesting question, she asked if I have a BF, I said no lah. And she even noted it down. Ok. I find it really weird. I don't know why. But somehow. probably .. It's a good thing. Yeahh. Oh, man.. I saw Shaf and Nadz at the bus interchange. Yeah. Yeahhh... Mom still thinks I'm with him. Sing with me? Pussycat Dolls- StickWitUI don't want to go another daySo I'm telling you exactly what is on my mindSeems like everybody is breaking upThrowing their love awayI know I got a good thing right hereThat's why I say (Hey)Nobody's going to love me betterI'm going to stick with youForeverNobody's going to take me higherI'm going to stick with youYou know how to appreciate meI'm going to stick with youMy babyNobody ever made me feel this wayI'm going to stick with youI don't want to go another So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mindSee the way we rideIn our privated livesAin't nobody getting in betweenI want you to know that you're the only one for meAnd I sayNobody's going to love me betterI'm going to stick with youForeverNobody's going to take me higherI'm going to stick with youYou know how to appreciate meI'm going to stick with youMy babyNobody ever made me feel this wayI'm going to stick with youAnd nowAin't nothing else I can needAnd nowI'm singing 'cause you're so, so into meI got youWe'll be making love endlesslyI'm with youBaby, you're with meSo don't you worry about People hanging aroundThey ain't bringing us downI know you and you know meAnd that's all that countsSo don't you worry about People hanging aroundThey ain't bringing us downI know you and you know meAnd that's why I sayNobody's going to love me betterI'm going to stick with youForeverNobody's going to take me higherI'm going to stick with youYou know how to appreciate meI'm going to stick with youMy babyNobody ever made me feel this wayI'm going to stick with youNobody's going to love me betterI'm going to stick with youForeverNobody's going to take me higherI'm going to stick with youYou know how to appreciate meI'm going to stick with youMy babyNobody ever made me feel this wayI'm going to stick with you
Sunday, May 14, 2006
7:00 PM
It's mothers' day! How wonderful mothers are. They've done so much for you that you never want to let them down. I love my mommy. And Congrats to my eldest sister, today she celebrates mothers'day for the first time.Muackz! Kayy.. So ..Vesak Day afternoon. I got a new Hp. Yah, A new Hp on friday. Daddy bought me a new phone. My whole family actually came down to Causeway point to accompany us to buy the phone. N6280, a bit bulky. But what the heck, I still got a new phone. Hahz. Me and 2nd sis bought a mom make-up from Bodyshop and a small hamper for eldest sis. haks. Oh yeah, on that day, this mysterious guy smsed me and was telling me of what I was wearing that day to get the phone. He must've seen me somewhere. But the thing is, I have no idea who he is. I only know that he's a guy, cos I sort of got frustrated so i called him, then I heard a guy's voice. Ishk! Yeah. Yesterday, went to causeway point to meet indrani. Yeahh. We just met. Walk around Causeway point. Heks. Got my boots for rugby ready. Went to starbucks at Northpoint to chill for a while. I bought this Banana Smoothie. It was soo banana-ish, I felt like poo-poo ing after drinking it. Indix bought the usual stufflah, Caramel Frap. heks. Ok-ok.Today, mothers'day. Kay. haish. someone's irritating. Sometimes, things can go well, but just that somebody just makes a big fuss over something small. It's really irritating lah at home. argh! Forget it. Alone now at home anyway. I'll see what happens lah when she gets home later. Oh man. Tomorrow there's lab! Lab! Lab! HAP lab. Wonderful. Haish. I have a lot of homework to catch up on. sooo.. Toodles! Let us Sing! Matchbook Romance- SurrenderThese are my sinsThese are my regretsI wouldn't trade them in for some truthAnd just let it go, let it goLet it go, let it goLet it go, let it goDon't waste your breathSave your tears for somebody who believesI can't help myself, let alone youI give upI give upThese are my dreams, these are my beliefsI wouldn't trade them in for something realAnd just let it go, let it goLet it go, let it goLet it go, let it goDon't waste your breathSave your tears for somebody who believesI can't help myself, let alone youI'm tired of making love to a memoryI give upI give upI giveDon't waste your breathSave your tears for somebody who believesI can't help myself, let alone youI'm tired of making love to a memoryI give upI give upI give up
Friday, May 12, 2006
12:22 PM
Oh Gosh. I can't handle this. I miss you. I miss you so. so much Azli. Azli. I miss you I still love you. I want you here right now. Be with me. Stand By me. Embrace me. . I can't force if you're against it. . It's It's Vesak Day. The whole family is at home. Woke up on the wrong side of the bed. I had a bad bad dream. I dreamt about Azli and Morhan is in it. Plus. It was a dream and us two still together. That's just ... I don't know. Will it ever happen again? Gosh. I can't help it. Anw. Yeahh.. My yesterdayssss.... Tuesday. In the afternoon. Went home with Hafiz Mus, Haris, Rino and Bevan. We made a lot of noise in the bus. Talking and laughing non-stop. Kecoh! Fun lah. wish that you were here Wednesday. Skewl ended early. At twelve. There was no lab. Heks. So, Me and Yen Ping were lepaking in skewl. In the library most of the time. Surfing the net. In the night, I went to Zulaiha's house. Had to print out some notes. My stupid computer coudn't open the file. So i had to go over to her house. Reached her house at 10 p.m. Left at 11 plus. Haks. Late right. Her parents weren't at home. So yeahh. with meThursday. It was the last day of the week. Woohoo. Had Food lab. Wasn't that interesting. Measuring stuff like water, flour, sugar. It was a simple practical. I had rugby training after that. Boy, was rugby training fun. We had to run a lot though. Here there. The whole field. But. It was worth it. You I only had fun, but I burned some calories. now. todayToday . Woke up. Dad told me, today he's going to buy me a new phone. Weewit. But don't know. See first lah. Let us sing this song today ...Fall-Out-Boys XO I comb the crowd and pick you outMy mouth moves too fast for you to figure it outIt starts eyes closed to fingers crossed“To I swear, I say”To hands between legs, to “whatever it takes”To drinks at the club to the barTo the keys to your carTo hotel stairs to the emergency exit doorTo the love, I left my conscience pressedBetween the pages of the Bible in the drawer“What did it ever do for me” I sayIt never calls me when I'm downLove never wanted meBut I took it anywayPut your ear to the speakerAnd choose awe or sympathyBut never bothLast time “I hoped you chokedAnd crashed your car”Hey “tear catcher”, that's all that you areAnd ever wereFrom the startI swear, I sayTo the “love” I left my conscience pressedThrough the keyhole I watched you dressKiss and tell(Loose lips sink ships)
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
8:19 PM
It hurts to watch you walk away, you left me nothing much to say, you broke the heart that I gave away, how I wish you were here to stay. I couldn't get it, I can't understand why, these thoughts haunt me i sigh i sigh, each time I sigh I'd start to cry, there's no easier way to say goodbye. All these time, I knew you were sincere, I appreciate every little gesture, though losing you was my greatest fear, but still, the decision made was for sure.Each day, I'd tell myself to let it go,move on with life, its ups and low,do know i did love you so,and well, I miss you so . It's alright, it's ok.
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
5:36 PM
I'm still in school now. Yeahh.. Skewl ended early. So I went to the library to play the comp. Alone now. heks. Well. today no lab so school ended at three pm. Tomorrow, no lab too. But school ends earlier. Heks. Well. Yesterday... School started late. At twelve Noon. I found out we had to do some tutorial worksheets. So, I was a bit Kancheong. But the teacher didn't even check lah. Anw, I was too tired after rugby. So i didn't manage to go online. Yeah. However, I did manage to watch Despo Housewives and Grey's Anatomy. Heks ... Yeahh. Rugby was ultra-fun lah. It was awesome. Huahua. I'm looking forward to Thursday's session. Anw, Today...I went to school as per usual with Yen Ping. At Tampines Interchange. I saw Azli, he was with Cheryl. Man, I was sooo.. I can't describe the feeling i was feeling that time. I was sort of in a state of confusion. Happy to finally manage to see him face to face. But yet. I'm still upset. Gosh. Yen Ping was telling me that I look so happy and that suddenly i became much more talkative. Well. I don't understand why. Yet, I feel a lil bit off. It's just that I'm still you know.. trying hard to get over the fact. FAct is.. It's over. Yehh. Get it. Get It. Enough lah, I'm in the school library. I can't go on. If not, emotional. Well. Off now. To. Get home. It's 5.45 pm. Sooo.. Adios.
Sunday, May 07, 2006
6:40 PM
It's Sunday Evening. Going to Sembawang Shopping Centre later with my family. So I have to do this QUICK! A. week. after. 30th. of. April. 2006.2. Weeks. After. My Burfday. Last meet. Last farewell. Last. *It's Our Last Night together.- singing farewell to frens*** Well. Yesterday... Went out with Indrani C. She was telling me I was complaining a lot. Oh Well. She knew something was wrong with me. I guess. Well, She is a GOOD friend. We walked around Far East. Ate at LJS. Bumped into Sylvia. She was with her poly friends. Heks. So, Indrani was shopping for a lot of things yesterday. Heks. Flip-flops, top, berms. Yeah. After that , we headed for Esplanade. Met a few new friends. Yeah. and headed home. Today, I was slacking at home. Whole day on the computer. I heard next week there's another gig at IJ studios. Heks. And somebody asked me to tag along. Oh, I don't know. Should i go? Well, talked on the phone with Haryani. Was updating each other about our lives. HEhe. I miss her. Yeahh. I really do miss her. Gosh. Ok-ok. Hehz. I have to go now. A new poem is on its way on my frenster blog. Haks. lom bis.. So, Take Cre. Singing is de-stressing. Go try it.
Friday, May 05, 2006
9:16 PM
Well, The title of today's entry. Haks. I have no idea why I put it. I just thought of a song then, this song came. Yeah. Today... Tried a new way to get to school. Me and Yen Ping were sick and tired of having to wait for 969 buses when in the end the bus would be too full for us to get in. It really sucks. Buang Maser. So, we took bus no. 39. Well, we had the intention to get to Tampines int. But then, as the bus reached Tampines area there, we noticed that there was this bus no. 8 service going along the same busstops as 39. so, we alighted at one of the busstop and took 8 which brought us straight to the school's busstop. Well. so mission accomplished. We've found a better way to get to school. That really good way. It took us only 1hr 15 mins to reache school so it wasn't bad. Today, i had lecture the whole day. It was wayyyy boring. The LT was noisy. Nobody was listening to the lecture. Well, we weren't in the main LT so no lecturer was watching us. But still, I tried to pay attention. The thought of tests and examinations just scares me. Well. Maths and stats was just a lil bit too complicating. I couldn't understand it at all. Lucky it was only an hour lecture. Food prep was hilarious. Listen to this joke. A married couple was in a car on a long journey towards city. Before that, they had an argument so they were giving each other the silent treatment for quite a while until the husband broke the silence. They were passing by these field that had a herd of cows grazing on the grass. So, the husband asked the wife, "Relatives of Yours??"Guess what the wife answer??? "Yes" she said it confidently. Followed By............. " They're My IN-LAWS!" Was it funny? I found it really hilarious. I was laughing so much that I got tears flowing out. Heks. Well, I'm dead tired sei today. Hadn't had any proper rest. Dragonboat, Rugby. All. Tired. So i guess. BYe! Let Us Sing... Rufio! - In My EyesYou're graceful, your grace falls, down around me in my eyes. You're lovely, your love leaves, So easily in my eyes. Another day left waiting, alone in my room with no calls from you. So I call you up, but you let me down, falling down around everyone except yourself. I thought that this would never end, things were so clear but they fell through. High hopes of problems never failed, thinking of the best. You're graceful, your grace falls, down around me in my eyes. You're lovely, your love leaves, So easily in my eyes. Another day left crying, with you in my room with nothing left to do. You say that it's not right, you said its over now. Stand still annoyed with no one around. I thought that this would never end, things were so clear but they fell through. High hopes of problems never failed, thinking of the best. You're graceful, your grace falls, down around me in my eyes. You're lovely, your love leaves, So easily in my eyes. You're graceful, your grace falls, down around me in my eyes. You're lovely, your love leaves, So easily in my eyes.
Thursday, May 04, 2006
11:15 PM
Never Missed you So So much.(I'm in Love With Click Five)Today, 969 was full on all the way. It was horrible. Met Yen Ping as usual, then terserempak dengan Nadz. She was otw to school too. yeahh, Saw Azli at the busstop but he didnt board the bus, the bus was too full lah. Both Me and Yen Ping wore Freshbox Tops today. I wore this brown shirt and she was wearing this razor back top. It was like coincidence lah. Yeah. Well. I went for dragonboat yesterday. Today I went for touch rugby. Touch Rugby was super fun!!! Yeahh. I think I'm joining that lah. It was really GErek uh. I was so enthusiastic lah. Even though I went alone. Well, None of my friends were interested in it but i was. So I just went alone. I made many friends there though. A lot of malays. Well. Touch Rugby is more for girls lah. The guys play the tougher one. Contact Rugby I think. There were a lot of malays lah. Heks. It was so much fun. I was having a good time. So yeah.. It ended at 8 plus 9. Went home alone. Then i saw Imam at the 969 queue line. He just ended school seii. That's late. Funny thing was that me and him kept on smiling at each other lah. Hekz. I drank a Medium Green Tea from Mac. Gosh, it was soothing and refreshing. I drank it really fast seii thinking that the bus will come soon. Then the bus didn't turn up for a good ten minutes sei. I was really tired lah. So, yeahh. Reached home. See. Azhar, my lil cuz at home. My aunt was admitted to the hospital. She fainted at work. Gosh. So that's why Azhar had to stay overnight at our home. Tomorrow. he has no school seii. Just because his school is one of the locations where the polling will take place. that's like. Awesome. Keewl. Gosh.. Tomorrow whole day lecture. Better be prepared!!!!!!!!!! Let's Sing Click Five - ResignI wanna be your hollywoodI could be your movie starYou misunderstoodWho you really think you areI wanna be your dollar billsI could be your shopping mallI'll be your diet pillsI won't stand to watch you fallResign Resign those wondrin' eyesand wake up to my lovetonightDon't wanna be your plastic dollI feel like I'm caught up in a raceYou can't break the fallI won't let you go to wasteYou wanna be designer clothesIt's a lame conspiracyYour lip scene overdoseIt doesn't mean a thing to meResign Resign those wondrin' eyesand wake up to my loveResign (Won't you resign)ResignThose wondrin' eyesand wake up to my love TonightResign (Won't you) Resign Those wondrin' eyes (Those wondrin' eyes) (Won't you resign) and wake up to my love Resign (Won't you resign) Resign those wondrin' eyes and wake up to my loveResign (Won't you resign) Resign those wondrin' eyes(won't you resign)and wake up to my love tonight
12:01 AM
Well. Who says its easy. Ever Easy. No. It's never been easy. Only stupid-heartless creatures think its easy. I'm trying my best. But hey. It takes time. It depends on your mental strength. You want it right. You do it right. Never Give Up
Well, today's a progress. I kept on listening to Click 5's ever so sweet songs to calm myself again and again. I love this song "i'll take my chances with you". I was late again for school. Gosh. Half an Hour late. It sucks lah. Should complain to SMRT buses. Must have many many many 969 buses in the morning. Even If it hurts
Had our first Lab session. It was cool actually. We got to work in pairs. Yeahh. I bought grey coloured contacts. well, I've got perfect vision so i bought the degreeless pair. Haks. It's cheap leh. Well. Throughout the whole Lab work. I was damn worried. We're not suppose to wear contact lensesin OCL labs. Thank God. the Lecturer didn't see. If not, Matric card. GONE! Heks so. It was lucky. and you still love him. you have to learn to let it go
So. yeah.. ate at Business School Today. Lontong not bad. Wanted to play pool again but now. TOO many people lah in the student lounge. After School, we savoured some sinful deserts at the cafe. Norvaan Gaaz I think. It's near the bookshop lah. Then after that shared a plate of mixed rice with Van at AS canteen. kay, so after eating so much. We went for Dragon Boat training. Gosh. I wasn't keen uh. But, I wanted to fill up my schedule. I need to lay off thinking about certain issues. So.. I reached home at 11 plus lah. OMG. And tmrw there's school. But the trraining was beneficial. It was tough. I think all the food that we ate burnt for our energy. So yeah.. Tomorrow Van taking leave. So It's only me and Yen Ping. Haish. Going to meet Yen Ping early tomorrow. So, I guess I better go. It's soo. Late. Lets sing.. Click Five- Just say Goodnight
Our seperation has it's faultsbut I don't wanna leave it allso write the letters in teary inkI just need some time to thinkand I just need some time to breathebaby just say goodnightI'll be gone tomorrowbaby just close your eyesI can't take the sorrowbaby just walk awayyou know I can't staythere's no easy way to say goodbyeso baby just say goodnightwe're in a spell that never endsthe empty hourglass wore me thinso let the phone do it's workyour voice is heavenbut it hurtsyour words are memoriesbut they burnbaby just say goodnightI'll be gone tomorrowbaby just close your eyesI can't take the sorrowbaby just walk awayyou know I can't staythere's no easy way to say goodbyeso baby just say goodnightbaby don't say goodbyebaby just close your eyesand dream,tomorrow's on it's wayso just walk awaybaby just say goodnightI'll be gone tomorrowbaby just close your eyesI can't take the sorrowbaby just walk awayyou know I can't staythere's no easy way to say goodbyeso baby just say goodnightbaby just say goodnight
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
9:10 PM
Grievance.One Day After Catastophe. I'm Doing Better. I'm trying my best to remain joyful. I'm listening to Click Five. Listening to MatchBook Romance made me cry at the bus stop this morning. Ok. So, yeah. It's difficult. But I can't just hang on. I have to move on. Move on. Don't give up, Siti Don't give up! My friends were the best today. Yen Ping and Vanessa were really gerek uh. They made my day uh. Thanks You Guys. I had fun in school today. Not to forget G and KC. Yeah. You guys. The Bomb. It was a bliss in school. Yeah. Yesterday, Indrani and Haryani were also best. I love you all so much. Ok. So,yeah. It's been a day, I'm trying hard to move on. It's difficult to get over. But, Faizah was telling me to take it slow. Yeah, I'll just try my best to appreciate with what I have now. I lost him, but hey, it may seem to me not alright at all, I know I can't do anything to change it. It just wasn't meant to be. So, I kept telling myself, It'll be fine. Well, I hope he is Ok. Gosh! it's really difficult. still.. i'd say. FARK YOUToday's Hap'nins.
I accepted the offer in the wakeboarding course. The Girl was calling, so, I said, Ok. So, I'm going. Our HAP teacher, let us off 50 mins before the actual timing of release. Heks. Me, YP, Van, G and KC had the intention to go play pool at the student lounge. But, it was closed, we tried waiting, but gave up due to hunger. Ate at Design School. The Samba Belacan was, HOT! I was in desperate needs of water seii. My lips turned red. Yah, today, school was supposed to be till 3. No lab. But, had OBC make up class. Ended at 5. Accompanied Yen ping to this Optic Shop, she was surveying prices of contact lens. Well, I know the cheapest place to buy contacts. What to do, both my sisters wear those contact lenses, so, yeah, I told her about this place in Chong Pang and brought her there. Yeah, then went home. Ouh, yeah, I've been having stomach aches sei today, it restricts my movements. Painful. kay.So yeah. That's it. Trying My best To Be my Best. Difficult.It hurts. But It's alright, It's Ok.Time heals. It's been Great. Joy. Let's Sing Click Five. Eric Dill, Nice Hair. Reminds me of you. CLICK FIVE-I'll Take My ChancesYou and IWe never had it easy babyWe had to work so hardAnd everytime it feels like we're gonna make itThat's when it falls apart, butOooooooohooBaby I'll take my chances with youOooooooohooBaby I'll take my chances with youEvery night I think about the mistakes I've madeI try to change my ways(Nothing's gonna change my ways)And I don't mind all the little games we playAnd all the foolish things you say,causeOooooooohooBaby I'll take my chances with youThat's what I'm gonna doOooooooohooBaby I'll take my chances with youLove is what you make itSo give it one more tryCause I get turned down when you're not aroundI just can't take it allYou and IWe never had it easy babyWe've both been hurt before(Both been hurt before)And only time will tell us if we're gonna make itThere's no way to be sure, butOooooooohooBaby I'll take my chances with youThat's what I'm gonna doOooooooohooBaby I'll take my chances with youYou know it's trueOooooooohooBaby I'll take my chances with youThat's what I'm gonna doOooooooohooBaby I'll take my chancesI'll take my chancesWith you
1:02 AM
There's no easier way to say goodbye. So Baby just say Good Night. I'm sorry. It hurts. I'm sorry. For whatever things I've said wrong. I know you cared. I cared too. I loved too. I missed too. So much more I'd want to say before. But It's too late. Life still, must go on.
Monday, May 01, 2006
11:36 PM
Today. Sucks. I hate Labour Day. I hate. I hate. I hate. The Day a week after my birthday. I so hate this day. Such a teary day for me. Well, Good things never last forever. As much as I hate short term relationship. It happens. F***. My eyes burn. I've been crying a lot. Gosh. I was crying in the MRT, in the Taxi. Everytime when I'm alone today, I'd just cry. The tears just keeps on flowing. This i hate. Yes, I am single. He left. He left me. As much as i don't want to accept the fact that I just got dumped by somebody that , wow, I've never had this kind of love before with. It hurts lah. It really does. No, you don't have a f***ing damn clue what I'm feeling right now. No way. Na-ah. Each time I look back on what happened today, at about 2 plus, when noone was at home. Yeah. I'd cry. Miserable? No! I can't let this make me miserable. I just am utterly upset. Disappointed. It's such a horrible feeling. Azli. So much for trying to make our relationship better. Your hands were up. You surrendered. I guess this F***king blog was meant to be. It's Sad. Just Sad. Would I be happy any sooner? No. Well. I met Indrani, almost sobbing. See! I'm crying now. Argh! I went to Haryani's Marhaban thingy. With a handbag and heels. So glamourous. Well, I just wanted to let it all out. Haryani and Indix knows. Well, they're my besties ever. But Right now, Right now! I need a hug from you. him. i can't. One last. I guess yesterday after the gig was my last chance. Sad. You went off. Our last farewells face-to-face as BF and GF was ... so... it was bad. Inproper. F***. Yeah. I need to understand your situation. I know ihave to. But, right now. I can't . I dont seem to understand. I just hate you. I'm sorry. I hate you. For what you just did. I hate you. I know I need to understand. but, sometime soon maybe I will. It's not alright. I can't let go of you. It's just so hard. Saying GoodBye. Is hard. Why did you have to go? you had to just leave. Leave... Walk away. It's been so fun. I enjoyed it so much. but you had to just leave. Cherish the moments. did you ever truly love me? why would you ever feel restricted? Run Away... just leave. I hate this. I'd never want to fall so deeply in love again. Scared. No, One last kiss. No, One last hugs. No? this sucks.