Tell Me Something So Beautiful

ABOUT ME

• NurulHuda aka Hudsie
• 24th April 1989
• Temasek Poly AFSN
• Loves Her Darling Ian
• Love to bake
• Loves creamy pasta
• Loves BNJ's Strawberry Cheesecake
• I want the Tiffany&Co.'s necklace
• I want that black Volcom dress or the white.
• I'm a TouchaHolic
• I envy guys cos of BenSherman
• I have a kitty Kat Tabby
• I love my niece Delphina Erlyna

Monday, May 01, 2006

11:36 PM

Today. Sucks. I hate Labour Day. I hate. I hate. I hate. The Day a week after my birthday. I so hate this day. Such a teary day for me. Well, Good things never last forever. As much as I hate short term relationship. It happens. F***. My eyes burn. I've been crying a lot. Gosh. I was crying in the MRT, in the Taxi. Everytime when I'm alone today, I'd just cry. The tears just keeps on flowing. This i hate. Yes, I am single. He left. He left me. As much as i don't want to accept the fact that I just got dumped by somebody that , wow, I've never had this kind of love before with. It hurts lah. It really does. No, you don't have a f***ing damn clue what I'm feeling right now. No way. Na-ah. Each time I look back on what happened today, at about 2 plus, when noone was at home. Yeah. I'd cry. Miserable? No! I can't let this make me miserable. I just am utterly upset. Disappointed. It's such a horrible feeling. Azli. So much for trying to make our relationship better. Your hands were up. You surrendered. I guess this F***king blog was meant to be. It's Sad. Just Sad. Would I be happy any sooner? No. Well. I met Indrani, almost sobbing. See! I'm crying now. Argh! I went to Haryani's Marhaban thingy. With a handbag and heels. So glamourous. Well, I just wanted to let it all out. Haryani and Indix knows. Well, they're my besties ever. But Right now, Right now! I need a hug from you. him. i can't. One last. I guess yesterday after the gig was my last chance. Sad. You went off. Our last farewells face-to-face as BF and GF was ... so... it was bad. Inproper. F***. Yeah. I need to understand your situation. I know ihave to. But, right now. I can't . I dont seem to understand. I just hate you. I'm sorry. I hate you. For what you just did. I hate you. I know I need to understand. but, sometime soon maybe I will. It's not alright. I can't let go of you. It's just so hard. Saying GoodBye. Is hard. Why did you have to go? you had to just leave. Leave... Walk away. It's been so fun. I enjoyed it so much. but you had to just leave. Cherish the moments. did you ever truly love me? why would you ever feel restricted? Run Away... just leave. I hate this. I'd never want to fall so deeply in love again. Scared. No, One last kiss. No, One last hugs. No? this sucks.