Tell Me Something So Beautiful

ABOUT ME

• NurulHuda aka Hudsie
• 24th April 1989
• Temasek Poly AFSN
• Loves Her Darling Ian
• Love to bake
• Loves creamy pasta
• Loves BNJ's Strawberry Cheesecake
• I want the Tiffany&Co.'s necklace
• I want that black Volcom dress or the white.
• I'm a TouchaHolic
• I envy guys cos of BenSherman
• I have a kitty Kat Tabby
• I love my niece Delphina Erlyna

Sunday, March 05, 2006

1:13 AM

Dear Bloggie, Well.. It's Sunday, The end of the week. I have to tell you, This week is like the most chaotic 7 days in my whole life. I got sick. Heartbroken. Was Overwhelmed.Was Relieved. Happy. What A week!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well. It's over now. Haiyo. Anyway, You know what bloggie, I got into the course I wanted, Food Science and Nutrition at Temasek Poly. Dearest got into the same school but he sort of got the choice he didn't want and he'd never ever see himself as a TP student. He thought he would never get in Tp. Ouh well, He's going to appeal for NYp, As much as I don't want him to go appeal as much as I want him to stay in TP. Again, I have no darn right to restrict him. It's his future we're talking about. So I just have to let him do whatever he wants. Am i right.. I just hope we'd be able to meet each other regularly, Even though we're not meeting each other enough even now, well i thought things will turn out better lah in the future. We both got to understand. I HAVE TO BE UNDERSTANDING. Gosh.. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why can't i just be satisfied.. I just cannot get enough! Nurul you are soooo BLEARGH! Enough2, As much as I want him to be with me most of the time, Well, I can't, I understand why. But sometimes, just SOMETIMES.. I'd be thinking, why get yourself into a relationship if you know U can't commit to be with that person always, that friends sometimes come later. This was what one of my friend's BF told me earlier. Since then, I kept thinking about what he told me. He asked me, Why don't i go out with my BF, Why am I always with my friends, Why can't I Meet my BF whenever I need company. WHY? WHY? Well, i don't know why. I know why but I don't know, sometimes I ask this to myself, WHY! Should I tell him this? School's starting soon, SO before we get busy with school work, shouldn't we like meet each other more often. I know friends are important, but what is the use of having a relationship if you're always with your friends????????????????? Gosh!! bloggie... i don't know what to do, sometimes I'd think of all this stuff, but then i'd think again, I'm only 17, is this what teenage realtionship suppose to be like!! But then I'll look at others, my friends and their BF, they'd always meet each other yet they still have time for their own friends. Am i right to say this that he should also be doing the same?? AM I! Thoughts Running wild through my mind.